I've fallen once. Now what's next?

“Just because you fall once, doesn't mean you'll fall at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always trust yourself, because if you don't then who will?”

― Marilyn Monroe

I figure that I've fallen once. Bummer, right! That's OK, because I will definitely get back up and go back at what I was doing. I thought that since I had a hard time at being alone on this trip, I could try something like volunteer work that help me acclimate to the country I'm going to. Then I thought to myself, why not just start off where you left from and go from there.

 

So that's actually what I am going to do. I will be heading to Cusco, Peru, that was the next big step I wanted to take on my trip and since I had a bit of a hard time getting used to this, ''I must admit I did not give it a big try, which is very bad of me'', this time I will take more time and stay in Cusco for a few week, getting used to being away and acclimate to the place. I said it before and i will probably say it again, I know it will be rough. At 36, I have been pretty sedentary for the last few years and have grown accustomed to routine and comfort. It is not an easy task to leave all this behind to live a nomad life.

 

Let's just say that I did not think strait at the moment I decided to head back home. I had been caught with major headaches for a few days (because of the altitude of the Andes), which I think created a domino effect on me, not enough sleep and not eating appropriately. The whole made me tired in no time and instead of stopping and relax for a few days and take it easy, I wanted to go forward anyways, well I did put myself in that situation where you take stupid decision and get impulsive. So be it, I tell myself now that it's done. But I was for a few days thinking that I had failed myself for wanting something that was much bigger that what I could accomplish.

So now, I'm heading back on August 14th and simply tell myself that whether I stay on the road for 1 month, 2 months, 3 months or more that will still be better than quitting the whole trip idea, right? I have dreamed of this for so long, so it would be quitting a dream altogether. I have worked many hours a week for over a year to prepare for this and I will not quit so easily. I might change things on how I will attain these goals, but I will keep going. The adventurer in me is still there, I have not asked for him to accompany me on a big trip for many years, maybe he's grown shy. I will leave him some time to show up again. That is exactly why I want to go back and give me time to adapt to this new way of life and hopefully live the experience of a lifetime.

So this adventure starts again very soon and I can't wait to get back to Peru and keep exploring the country and maybe more, one step at a time.

''Sometimes it's OK to take a few steps back to better move forward''